Always Together, Never Apart
20 Feb 2011 Leave a Comment
Going away, to a far distant place, going away, with all my grace
To feel so at home where I have never been, makes me look up to the sky and grin.
The days have passed and change has occured, and through all the visions non have been blurred.
I reach up high, as I feel the rain, I won’t look back to feel the pain.
Friends I have loved and lovers who have faded, will always be remembered and honored for what you have created,
for who I am, is apart of you, and you and you and you and you. So don’t be blue,
smile for me, for this is a start of a new journey.
Enjoying the moments, enjoying the bliss, but the time has come to give one last kiss.
We will meet again, in a different time, you will always be a friend of mine.
I am going away, to a far distant place, going away but I will rememeber all your grace.
To all my lovely friends and family in Canada 
My Journey to Korea begins!!
Catching a Smile
12 Feb 2011 Leave a Comment
in General Life
The worlds we create in our minds can take us to these wonderful most amazing places that we have ever seen, however they also take us to the darkest scariest placest that one could ever think of too.
It is amazing how each individual lives in each’s own world. Our reality is just that. Mine. Yours. Our perception make up what we see and how we read how this funny moment is taking place. Simply by someone writing on their… yes… I’m going to use it… on their facebook wall a simple statement of, “you make me smile”. Tons of different people, friends, boyfriends, girlfriends are either going to take it personally and feel good about the fact that “you make me smile”, emotion high, or they will take it personally and start wondering who that person is that isn’t them, and what are they missing to not make a smile arise and the emotion falls to a low.
Our reality, locks how we feel, through filling in the blanks. Those blanks are either positive or negative, confident or having low self-esteem. It is incredible. All the different realities we create about eachother, about ourselves every chance that we get.
When I took a walk to the ocean today, I went to the same place I go to time and time again. This time though, I was more present than I have been. I went by that huge washed up log and noticed for the first time a plaque stationed right by it. It simply stated something like this: So you are here now. Might I make a suggestion. Have a seat, get comfortable and forget everything else that is going on in your world, close your eyes and listen to now. Once you have caught that smile, say thank you.
Feeling free and wonderful, I took a squat by the ocean and followed the advice, it is amazing when you find that simple smile and I will remember to do that more often. As my feet took me back over the crushed seashells, rocks turning into sand, I realized that everything else is there, but this moment is what really matters, this is where I am and this is what I feel with each step, each thought, here, now.
There are moments that a person gets to really know what it feels like to be in the moment. That is my reality, enjoying when those tiny escapes happen from my own mind. Grounding. Breathing. Feeling. Real.
Hey Mama, Remind Me ’bout the Good ol’ Days
03 Feb 2011 1 Comment
in General Life
Country music. You just don’t find that many people who like it. I come from Alberta, I grew up with George Straight, Vince Gill, Garth Brooks, Brooks and Dunn, Shania Twain, Colin Ray and so many more. Country music, holds a special place in my heart, it reminds me of home and I have never felt this dislike that it seems so people have for this genre of music.
I moved to Vancouver 2 years ago, and have only heard and been to one country bar. It was great, the mood was fun, people were great, live band. Memories of my childhood took over me and I was soo exhilarated!! Then the song came on, the song that always gets everyone doing a super fun line dance, The Cadillac Ranch. So I get right into it, I’m center and up front ready for the lines to part and everyone get in on this fun dance… I look around to my dismay, I am the only one doing the line dance. WHAT?! Who are you people, who doesn’t know the Cadillac Ranch. Over and over again in my head I am in shock, looking around and seeing if anyone is attempting to join or try it… no. Vancouver, my first disappointment. Ouch!! I am soo displeased that I even pull the bass band member aside and tell him my shock.
From then on, I look around and see if these people actually know how to do any country dances, two-step, six-step shuffle, even a country cha-cha came on… no, not a single couple came out and showed me something amazing on the dance floor, nor was there a single guy that took me and just started in on a good country dance. So I take my friend, and I teach him the two-step. It was fun and I was glad I could share a part of my history with him. After though, I sent messages to my mom with my funny, disgruntled attitude towards the whole night.
Nonetheless, I had a fantastic time and it just rejuvenated my whole system for the prairie air and forever long Alberta skies. It is definitely something to have those moments of bliss that remind you of what you loved when you grew up. For me, the smell of horses, hay, grass so high over our heads that we would make secret trails and forts, going on an adventure in the rain in search for a bug and cross a boundary where magic begun, the thunder storms, the northern lights at midnight, the millions of stars, walking forever and of course country music, the main item that reminds me of what I loved about Alberta.
